So, here I am in Houston, and treatment has begun in earnest. On the last 2 trips home to Dripping after appointments at MDA, I have been hit full force with the reality that I am not just in Houston to visit my friends Anita, David, Wheeler, Laura, and precious family members. I am being treated at MD Anderson, by G-d!! MD Anderson, the place I had refused over and over again to seek out for evaluation. This is SERIOUS stuff!!
Typically I have been somewhat of a cheerleader, particularly after coming up with a plan I like and can believe in. I act almost as if this is just a gallbladder or other minor medical problem. I feel good, with a few abdominal aches, but nothing “to write home about.” Everybody gets funky sensations at times. However, after many long days of appointments, and the little niggling thoughts at the back of my brain, the reality of how serious this situation is hits home! When I read notes about how I am fighting for my life, I have to acknowledge that this is actually true. It doesn’t seem fair or possible at times–I have always exercised, eaten extremely healthy, love what I do, and am surrounded by fabulous friends and family. I have always tried hard to be a better, happier human being–whether that means being more patient with parents, children, Michael, friends, or strangers. It also means looking at ways to decrease my stress level and be kinder to me, Melanie.
But, it is what it is. So, here I am. A great deal of stress has been relieved by my precious daughter starting a GoFundMe account. Originally, my bigger concern was not, how am I going to treat this problem, but how in the world can we survive another financial hit? So thanks to all of you who advised Arielle and spread the word!! It is weird to be on the receiving end of charity, but I am extremely grateful!
My 2 days of treatment have been truly much easier than expected. The daily radiation treatments last 20 minutes, and the technicians play whatever music I request in the background. I have felt absolutely nothing, and probably will not experience noticeable ill effects for a few weeks. The chemo yesterday was SO much easier than 3 and 1/2 years ago!! Cisplatin does not cause neuropathy nor hair loss, just more nausea, which they try to circumvent by anti-nausea meds, both IV during treatment and orally for days following chemo. I felt a little “off”, but nothing dramatic. Anita and I even managed to get in a walk around Cetennial Gardens, with its lovely waterfalls and flowers, (and then some fabulous lemonade) before going back for radiation. After resting, David (Anita’s very sweet boyfriend/husband) and Anita took me out for a fabulous dinner at True Foods. Yum, yumm! All I feel this morning is a slight headache.
So, enough for now. Keep sending those positive thoughts and prayers. I take great solace wrapping myself in them before, during, and after treatment.